Not through denial. Not through forgetting. This is just the level I’ve reached through a combination of self discipline and experience. I have no use for false humility or pretending to be more fragile than I actually am, which is very. Nor am I being arrogant. I have to thank …
Apparently, I was attached enough to the voluntarily insignificant to feel some pain about his decision to discard me. So I need to cleanse. Don’t want to drag any of the past into the future, except the lessons. It’s such a bother. Cleansing has a few purposes. One is the …
Well, my fuckboy turnover filters are working. The newling called me today to dump me. As usual, he wanted to talk about it…in person no less. Why do they want to talk? “If you’re going to shoot then shoot.” Anyway, I have stuff to do…a surgery to prepare for, a …
Edit: As it turns out, all of this was just a big deception on the mistake’s part. I was right and he was planning to dump me. I missed a couple of cues in the meeting that should have warned me not to believe him and not to touch him. …
Okay, now we’re on Day 2 of “Alone Time”, which is actually Unknown Time. Since it’s unknown, it may as well be forever. My inner animal is a dog. I hope for a lot, but don’t expect anything. There’s only so much disappointment one can take without stopping expecting people …
At some point I had to take a step back and look at my situation. I realized that most of my pain when it comes to relationships is self inflicted. I expect nothing, but demand a lot in order for someone to keep my attention. It’s not their fault if …
