Papa Returns

Posted on November 26, 2011 at 12:49 pm by IronWynch

About two weeks ago, Papa II and I had an interesting conversation during which he opened the door for me to confess my feelings.  As you can imagine, this was a terrifying situation for both my inner princess and bitch.

However, armed with what is now a few years of truth time, honest bro input, and a brief stint of fangirling practice, I beat that bitch to death, burned her corpse, and threw her ashes to the wind along with my caution.  I sang my pitiful truth with no expectations or demands.  It needed to be said, so I said it.

As hard as I’ve tried not to, I do still love him.  Much to my amazement, he was happy about that.  So then there was the question of what to do about it.

We were supposed to meet that weekend, but he couldn’t come.  Then there were a few days when I thought he might be blowing me off.  I was pissed off and feeling insecure, and I got a cold for the first time in years.  In a diphenhydramine haze, I posted some crap that was vague but still crap.  Then shortly after that he called me to tell me why he was out of touch for awhile.

Feeling stupid, but happy, I apologized for the bitchy relapse and have made a promise to myself not to post on cold medicine anymore.  We finally did meet on Thursday night.  Though Voodoo ceremony has to be somewhere on the list of top ten worst first dates, he managed pretty well.  Well, until one of my bros did the protective Big Gay Dude Protective Sister thing.  There was a method to his badness though.

While I cringed sitting on the edge of the balcony, the jaw dropping moment came when Diva flat out asked Papa II if he loved me.  For a split second, I was utterly stunned.  I could hear that slow motion ,”Noooooooo!” in my head, and though my brain was telling me to tackle Diva, I could not move.  I just blinked my eyes.

Then Papa II answered that yes he does.  I blinked some more.  I didn’t know what to say or do.  My heart was prepared to shatter but then it didn’t.  So it melted.

After the ceremony, we talked awhile more, and well…the details are not for public consumption.  However, I will say that what’s happening is weird and beautiful.  Maybe it’s beautiful because it’s weird.

So now I just have to not screw it up again.  This time, I’m letting him be the man because really, I have no choice.  I understand now in a way that I didn’t a few years ago, that I cannot be the man in any relationship with a man no matter how hard I try.  If I try, I’m just going to do it wrong.

I don’t have the balls.  I’m a pussy, so if I try to presume to be the leader, my answer to every upset is going to be to run and hide or start a stupid conflict that shouldn’t exist.  Those are the only tools in the female in a heterosexual relationship toolkit: escape or proactive and presumptuous aggression.

It’s my job to be there, be supportive, and be sweet and pretty unless in the process of being supportive I must be un-sweetened and get dirty in order to get the job done.  That’s a lot of work.  He can do the directing.

I just hope I got certain of my grandmother’s good genes.

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White Devil

Posted on November 6, 2011 at 12:07 pm by IronWynch
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From the berzerker to Hannibal Lecter, the White devil is the man the world loves to hate.  He is the rapacious, exploitive capitalist whose thirst for blood is only matched by his thirst for gold.  He pursues his interests with a madness that we others would love to view as uniquely dark and especially evil even though history and current events make it clear that they are not.

Behind the Devil image is a man; a man with the same basic needs as any other, simply adapted to get those needs met in a rather unforgiving European climate.

In the past 60 years, it has become rather socially and economically inconvenient to be a White devil.  The image ceased to be economically convenient because of shifts in politics, so it ceased to be socially convenient as well.  However, the baby was thrown out with the bathwater as soon as the effort to no longer be viewed (on the surface anyhow) as the scourge of mankind, crossed the line into not wanting to be viewed as “oppressors” of their women.  Ultimately, this ended up with most of them in the situation of being socially and politically restricted from reasonable ethnic/cultural autonomy, and will if left unchecked, lead to restriction of national autonomy.

So it pleased me very much that in the wake of Anders Brevik’s shooting and bombing spree, the academic community in Norway might actually be doing something real to prevent a similar tragedy.  Even better, the person they chose to represent the men’s rights and cultural recovery side in a recent panel wasn’t a crazy skinhead.  It was Elvind Berge.

Nontheless, during the debate, he was compared to Hitler and told that he needs to see a psychologist.  Police were lined up outside the building, and crowds of people showed up to gawk at the supposed terrorist sympathizer.  The other panelists were applauded for making unfair and outright false statements about Mr. Berge, and yet somehow he gets cast as the Nazi.

Now, he is being ostracized for his views in a way that no Arab supporter of terrorists who actually sends money to terrorist cover organizations and participates in very public anti Israel protests has ever been, to my knowledge, in any western country, even Israel.  He has been kicked out of his apartment by the landlord and refused by others.  Yet somehow he is cast as the Nazi.

These blatant sexists and racists who believe that women and people of color are incapable of getting employment and education on an equal basis in a society and nation with both laws and social conditions enforcing their equality, and need quotas…

These puritanical sexual mafiosas who strip people of their legal right to sex between consenting adults on whatever terms they choose so long as they do not cause unreasonable harm…

These goose stepping mobs of torch wielding de facto illiterates who ignore 90% of human history…

These people who export their social disease to Mother Africa with the same presumed moral supremacist fervor with which they used to colonize and exploit her, only as a cover for a more (effective but still exploitive) Roman style of colonization…

These White devils have decided that Elvind Berge is the devil despite the fact that he is neither sexist nor racist enough to view women or people of color as the default victims of anything European or male by default of it being European or male.  It is because he does not view himself as a devil who must repent by committing genetic suicide, the real devils want to point the finger at him and not themselves.

Irony.

Anders Brevik is indeed a monster, but he is a monster that feminism and the multicult made.  If the society he grew up in had invested in him, then he may have felt more invested in that society, and rather than going on a killing spree against it, he’d have directed that energy towards enemies on a battle field.

Many African American men in the U.S. deprived of constructive ways to express their manhood and channel their aggressive energies turn to drugs, gangs, and misdirected violence.  Why should this be different for Europeans?  Africans in Africa who find their ethnicities/cultures under attack react with violence.  Why should this be different for Europeans?

Is a man a devil for simply expressing what is a very natural way to feel about having one’s manhood stomped down by their government?

I have to wonder about all the supposed men who do not see anything wrong with gender and ethnic quotas, prostitution being illegal (meaning that consensual sex is regulated), and their country putting more money into absorbing hostile immigrants than into supporting citizens.  Is it that if you are not a sucker, you are a devil?

Fine then.  Let’s bring back the White devil.

Time has shown that the Black man keeping certain features of his more monstrous stereotypes has been good for him.  As sweet and kind as a Brother may be, we all know and like the fact that if you push him too far, he is going to push back.

Eastern European men also have that something about them.  So it is not that White men have all lost that.  It’s just that regionally, western Europeans have allowed themselves to be politically overrun by ideologues posing as idealists.  They may not be able to turn things around politically overnight, but they can decide that the label of White devil isn’t a bad thing.

One guy coming out gets used as an example, but millions?  They can’t evict you all from all of your apartments.  All of your wives aren’t going to divorce all of you.  In fact, they will love you more for being a man than they loved you for pretending to be Mr. Sensitive.

Wear your horns with pride.  Everyone else views you as the Great Satan no matter what you do anyway.  Might as well do what you want.

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You Wanted Equality? White Woman Gets Clocked

Posted on October 12, 2011 at 6:46 pm by IronWynch

I don’t know if my comment will still be there once it’s read by the admins there, but here’s my reply to The Smoking Gun: Cops Probe Viral Video Of Attacks On Woman

Nobody else wants to say it so I’m saying it.  I know many people who grew up poor, and many who were abused at home and went through all manner of hell who would still never do such a thing.  It is a mental defect that makes people do things like that, and it is a societal defect that allows such people to walk the streets.  Because it has for so long been about race, you have some White people running around assaulting people because they’ve been raised to feel the world owes them for being born White, and Black people who have been raised to feel the world owes them something because, what, over 100 years ago, some of their ancestors were slaves (as if there were never in history any European slaves, forget the word “slave” came from “slav”). 

That in and of itself is bad, but now we have feminism instead of egalitarianism, that makes women think the world owes them something for having female genitalia.  It blinds them to the realities of life.  Well, they wanted equality and now they have it.  The stupider men who are easier to brainwash now view women the same as weak men, and since they don’t feel protective towards women, they treat women the same as weak men.

If you don’t want guys beating you up like they would a vulnerable dude wandering aimlessly, then you need to stop teaching your sons and male peers that it’s okay to punch us in the face for getting up in their face like they would a guy who did the same thing.  If it was a White MAN getting up in a Black man’s face, and the Black guy punched him, nobody would make a peep about it.

Well, this Black man is a product of your feminist society.  You White people who spread this social disease that gender is only a social construct gave him permission to beat her down like a dude.  So this is actually a success story to you people.

You (White women) wanted equality, well here it is.  I don’t approve of that cretin’s behavior, but then I’m an egalitarian, not a feminist.  Enjoy the monsters you made.

I wonder if they’ll let it stay.  They should because well, this is what a feminist looks like: thugs who think it’s okay to punch a woman in the face.  Sure, they’re wrong, but they were very likely raised without a father in the home, by a “strong” mother who insisted they treat women like equals.

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