There are so many little things that get neglected, overlooked, and pushed aside when one is unboyfriended.  When it’s just a matter of an occasional visitor who doesn’t really care much, you don’t have to care much about what they think or see aside of smelling good and shaving.  With a boyfriend, he’s actually going to see your room in the light of day and the environment will affect him.

 Then there is the state of readiness.  Though my boyfriend is in the army, and I don’t know when I’ll get to see him, I don’t know when I’ll get to see him so I should always be ready.  There’s also things like making sure one’s whole body is touchable.  I’m cool except for my heels.  For them, I might have to bring in a professional; get an actual pedicure.  I’ll try to smooth them out myself, but DIY is never the same for some reason.  Maybe it’s about the angle of attack.

Last, but not least, there is the shift from bro to boyfriend.  Some things are appropriate to joke about and discuss with or around bros that are inappropriate to go into with a boyfriend or in the presence of one.  For example, certain body functions, he should suspect that I have by virtue of my being human, but never know about from direct observation.  For as long as I can keep it so, he should think that if I do actually excrete anything but evidence of loving enthusiasm, it must be made of roses, sandalwood and vanilla or something.  Fortunately, I was not in bro mode with him long enough for him to find out otherwise.

So this weekend, I was on high alert, but things went smoothly.  Well, that is until we got some very bad news.  He handled that very well too.  There isn’t much he can do about it, but it’s very cool that he cares.

This is just one of the few times that some government officials have had to eat a little of the shite they helped to pile on the heads of the poor.  It’s a shame that the poor had to suffer too, as well as some who were helping them, but at least this time there was some Matthew 5:45 effect in that the rain did indeed fall on the just and the unjust this time.

Having lain in a pool of my own blood at one time, and been close to that at others, I know what it’s like to be okay with the end.  Having never sought to harm anyone without due cause at such a moment is, despite the circumstances, a pretty nice feeling.  It makes the pain seem more like a passage.  If it’s the end then so be it, but you keep breathing…focus your energy on drawing on breath at a time, because you’ve still got good stuff to do.  I’d really hate to come to that moment as a parasite on the arse of the world.  I wonder if they’d even learn anything from such an experience.

So far, it’s just a straight up nightmare there.  According to the Telegraph, the death toll could reach 200,000.  Streets are piled with bodies, and people are rioting because of the slow delivery of food, water, health care, and rescue.  Part of the problem is that there isn’t even enough space or security at the airport.  Since long, the situations at the sea ports has been bad.  Food was rotting on the ships because of corruption.  It was like they were keeping the poor starving on purpose.  Artificial inflation kept food prices rising for no good reason.

…and now this.  I hope it causes a revolution.  Until then though, I hope it puts a big magnifying glass up for the world to get a good look at what happens when you keep people down for so long, and then something happens that even the government can’t anticipate or insulate themselves from, and the rich can’t buy their way out of.

None of us is immune from Nature.  You can beat the system, and beat a slave, but you can’t beat the Earth.

I don’t know…I hope people learn from this.  I’m not holding my breath though.  If people with money understood the basic principles of life, they wouldn’t be so exploitive, and probably wouldn’t have as much money.  Maybe that’s just one of those “nature of the beast” things.  I suppose all those who don’t have so much money can do against their greed in the meantime is find ways around it.  Whoever can, should be prepared for the parasite based infrastructure to collapse in the event of a major disaster or war.  If it’s possible, this should be a community effort.

Don’t rely on a system that’s only built to exploit you.  If you do, then when you need help, it probably won’t be there.  Not pointing fingers, because this is just about every government on earth.  Some though, are worse than others, and the Haitian government was well known for its screwed upness.  I can’t help seeing this event as a kind of an illustration of what can happen elsewhere.