Mar 05 2010

Reiteration: I Love All My Bitches

Category: poetryIronWynch @ 8:55 pm

i love all my b!tches
i treated them well
fed them when they hungered
picked up when they fell

helped them pay their bills
when i had and they didn’t
encouraged their dreams
shared their disappointment

i never asked
for more than i gave
all had their freedom cause
i don’t want a slave

yes i loved all my b!tches
when they went away
i was not going
to stand in their way

i had a good time
i hope they did too
but i cared and they didn’t
nothing i could do

sometimes i think of them
each one was special
the one who liked manga
and one had a weasle

there was one who just fit
in one leg of my pants
then there was the one
who’s allergic to ants

i used to braid one of their
hair on night shifts
then there was one
who could really shoot the gift

yes they were all sweet guys
talented and smart
but there was no real connection
only a false start

i have no regrets
i did it from love
but when it’s one sided
i gave them the shove

one must go about this
on good faith and honor
100%
unless they’re just a sperm donor

abject humility
to love and its expression
push pride aside
and don’t hold back affection

a warrior in love
does not win every time
but shows they’re a diamond
in a dozen of dimes

in love i am much like
a mad kamikaze’s vision
if i crash and burn
i’ve still accomplished my mission

it’s simply to show that
they’re special to me
if i’m not special to them
i don’t have to agree

my love is special
enough to myself
so much so in fact
i won’t stay on a shelf

so to all of my b!tches
you know who you are
i hope that you find her
your special bright star

it wasn’t me so
i had to move on
no ill will is left behind
i’m just gone

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May 19 2009

Done

Category: Days and NightsIronWynch @ 1:53 pm

Today marked a turning point in my overall recovery.  Things came to a head in my household around the issue of whether or not to keep open bowls of cat food in the house.

I’ve been cooking more, cleaning more, and being slightly more assertive about making sure the others do their chores.  So the last thing I need is to give the rats, ants, and roaches that generally plague this area, an open invitation to free dinners.  Granted, rats who wander in don’t live long, but it only takes one pregnant roach to spark an infestation that would require more than my feline mini-platoon to combat.

…but as with most things, I must be wrong because it’s me.  A stranger on the street can tell them something, and it would mean more than if I say it.

Two weeks ago, the house was robbed, and Shai’s credit cards and a watch were stolen because I said the doors should be locked and the balcony bars closed when there is nobody up and awake to watch them.  Since I said the place should be secure, of course nobody listened because if I said it, it must automatically be wrong.  Shai gave me the speech about how because this is Israel, people don’t commit robberies in broad daylight, etc.

Well…

Now I’m saying that there shouldn’t be open bowls of food laying about the house when the cats are usually outside, and of course that has to be wrong.

…only at the point of us getting robbed, I was done.  I was done helping anybody in my sphere of influence to ignore reality for the sake of their ego.

D O N E.

So when Moon defiantly told me that she had replaced the cat food bowls in the livingroom, while I applaud her stubbornness and questioning everything, I told her that this is a case where she does not need to understand.  She needs to obey until she does.  When she has her own place, she is free to experiment and suffer the consequences on her own bill.

Shai is now in his “just following orders” but with a bratty attitude mode.  I used to care when he was like that.  I don’t anymore.  There will not be open bowls of food in my house in the summer.  Period.   If they persist, then they will find themselves without cats to feed.  I’ll relocate them to the park across the road, and take food there for them daily myself, if need be.

Yeah, I’m back.

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