A few nights ago, I had a dream. Someone I care about and did my best to help and promote was in the dream attempting to chat me up. It was weird because as far as I can tell, this person sees me as a kind of auntie, and I see them as a kind of nephew. In the dream, I reacted as if his chat-up attempt was a joke. By the end, I was indeed rolling. I laughed so hard it woke me up.
I wasn’t sure what it meant, but I figured since some of the lines were things a younger guy might think that an older guy would say, but don’t hit the same when a younger guy is saying them, it was reminding me that though he is very smart, he’s not so mature. I could sense that he hasn’t recovered enough from his Christian brainwashing that I can say he’s, well, safe. He’s made great strides, but apparently there is enough of a vulnerability in his protection against the Christos thoughtform, that he actually listens to people speaking of gender and sexuality in western binary terms.
He’s not the only one with this problem. There are lots of guys I know in the African spirituality community who have this issue because for the past decade the grifters have been hard at work in the manosphere. Their ideology hinges on the western binary, and lately they have been scapegoating less than a percent of a percent of the human population to promote their paradoxical malthusian “white” demographic panic. They’re afraid of “white” genocide, but they are happy to exploit us in any way they can, so they use our cool factor to hype up misogyny and homophobia in the African American community. Keeping us looking like simplistic, primitive savages who were too dumb to figure out people of the same sex could touch each other, is in their interest not only to keep us looking inferior, but to keep this inferiority looking iconic.
Black masculinity is at once held up as the iconic extreme or ultimate, but this of course, in their ideology, needs “white” intellect to regulate.
Sometimes I feel like I’m screaming into the void with my people.
They can get that colonists wanted to take everything from them.
They can get that they would gut us spiritually, economically, and culturally.
…but somehow when it comes to gender, the nazis were right? In that way they’re going to be truthful and natural, even though they’ve perverted everything else? Oh we should reject their racial hierarchy, but keep the gender labels and hierarchy?
I just can’t anymore.
I am tired.
I explain once. Then I’m out.