I’m feeling pretty much the same way about sex right now. I NEED a sense of love, understanding, and complete trust with my partner. Anything else would feel like pretending. (And thats exactly what it feels like, as if been at a table eating but I can’t seem to get full). I’m still hopeful that I’ll find someone who I can have this with, despite folks like Obsidian who seem determined to convince me that it will never happen.