My Place

Candlei never asked you to love me
i don’t need this
i only give one warning
a man should heed this

don’t tell me things
i don’t need to hear
don’t tell me lies
don’t play on my fear

i don’t need the games
that little girls play
i just need you here
for today

i won’t take you anywhere
you don’t want to be
whatever’s holding you
is you and not me

i understand
all is temporary
so there was never a need
to con me

the world is full of love
it’s as close as the dust
that falls from above
it clings to your toothbrush
and outside the glove

the earth is made of love

thousands of humans
have come too form me
and billions of others
the naked eye cannot see

at least millions give birth
each month i do not
and countless armies will spring
from my guts as i rot

besides that i’m grateful
to have some good friends
not as many as others
but more than means to my ends

i can stand well alone
but i don’t have to
so you don’t need to go
where you don’t want to

i have no shame tied in this
no need to save face
i’m aware of my value
but i know my place

and if your opinion
of me is so low
i will not stand to stop you
you are free to go

but please don’t pretend
that you left for my sake
that i had any dreams
to disappoint when i wake

i would have been happy
with not being hit
or raped or assaulted
or treated like shit

i came to my peaceful
acceptance of truth
through blood scabs and bruises
and violations in youth

so my scale for tragedy
and tolerance for pain
may not be the highest
but i can stand the rain

the world is full of hate
it’s a part of the balance
and tied to our fate
the yeast eats the sugar
to make beer worth the wait

much we love is made of hate

what may help you move on
since you’re on that track
is as much as i love
i never expect this back

it’s nice when it happens
but again i’m aware
that humans are fickle
and life isn’t fair

in some ways it is better
to see you walk away
than to have you for a lifetime
and watch you die someday

let that fall on someone
who you’d be happy
for that face to be the last
one that you see

i’ve already been there
with breaths weakening
the soft dimming lights
the end beckoning

my very last worry
as all worry turned to whim
was i hope that my loved ones
know that i love them

so i’m satisfied
with that as you go
you know all that i
really need you to know

so go on in peace
with this irrelevant information
that does you no good
gives you no validation

but since i’m in this circle
of love by myself
i say this for me so it
can come off the shelf

and be hidden somewhere
where it bothers none
what’s to say has been said
now it’s done


My pronouns are whatever you're comfortable with as long as you speak to me with respect. I'm an Afruikan and Iswa refugee living in Canaan. That's African American expat in Israel in Normalian. I build websites, make art, and assist people in exercising their spirituality. I'm also the king of an ile, Baalat Teva, a group of African spirituality adherents here. Feel free to contact me if you are in need of my services or just want to chat.

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