you believed no one could understand
and so it didn’t matter what i said
nothing that i could have done compared
to the drama you played out in your head
as many times as i said that i could wait
so long as there was something to wait for
as many times as i said i’ll be here
and when you want me i’ll come to your door
as many nights i occupied myself
with my own work to keep from missing you
as many ways that i apologized
for any slip or fail in trusting you
nothing i could do was good enough
because you’d already decided for me
you’d made made a self fulfilling prophecy
and set me up making excuses to ignore me
so there was no way that i could win this
your mind was made up that first night we met
so you might as well have stayed away from me
you’re now the first love in my life that i regret